Time to get real.

I have been floundering lately. I am doing much better in the exercise department , not so much in the food category. I signed up for Weight Watchers Online and will start counting points in the morning. My husband and I will probably start trying to have a baby in a year so I really need to focus on being healthy. I feel like I have battled my weight my whole life. I wake up every day and think maybe today will be the day that I am freed from obsessions from food. That day hasn't come yet. I just think way too much about food and exercise, way more than a normal person would. I feel like a prisoner in my own mind most days. My goal is to eat three meals a day with only fruits or vegatables in between and to count points. I will also exercise minimum 3 times a week. I have gained about 10 pounds in the last year. This is not outrageous but I know it can quickly escalate. I also feel uncomfortable in my clothes and I feel like my gut is huge. There's a quote that I like: "Never trade what you want at the moment for what you want the most." What I want most is to be healthy and fit. I don't care about being a size 4 or 6. I just wanna be energetic and healthy. Right now I feel obese and blubbery. I have faith that God will help me in my endeavor to lose weight.