Tough Times Ahead!!

Wow, have I been struggling lately. I have not been exercising as much as I normally do. I have also been eating like I am preparing for a famine to hit. This equals tight pants. I have been making myself journal my food whether or not it is good. I am having a lot of difficulty fitting exercise in. When I get home from work, I have to cook, help Grayson with homework, and clean house. By the end of the day, I'm ready to take a bath and chill. I am a little nervous about the upcoming holidays. I love being off but it is not good for my eating plan. I have been trying to eat like a normal person . I have learned that the more I obsess over what I eat, the more I eat. I read somewhere that thin people do not treat hunger as an emergency, they know the feeling will pass. I do treat hunger as an emergency. I am afraid of hunger, I always have been. I'm not sure why. My goal for the next week is just to learn to be hungry sometimes and realize that it will not kill me. I don't mean starve myself. I just mean feeling the hunger and learning it will be ok. My body was made to move and I need to learn to listen to it and give it good food that it craves but just enough to nourish it. I may sound insane to the normal eater and in some ways, I am. But I am a compulsive overeater and these are the things I deal with on a daily basis.